The last couple of months has been a battle of spiritual warfare like none I have encountered since I gave my life to Christ. The enemy doesn't play fair and I pray that anyone reading this will armour up with the sword of Truth and take the offensive against Satan. See when you only play defense eventually your opponent will score against you. When the game is life and death in the game of Heaven vs Hell you better have a Great Offense, that offense is always the Word of God.
You see the enemy knows my weakness for beautiful women as much as Christ does. Last year I took a vow of celibacy as to honor God in my life. So that I may live as an example and teach other men that struggle as I do with sins of flesh. I was doing pretty good with my walk so I thought.
Yet the enemy kept bringing one beautiful lady into my life after another. I explained to each one that I had taken this vow and each had told me how much they respected it. Then the enemy would build a closeness between us that would in one case put us on the verge of failure. I quickly through prayer and grace of God saw how close I was to the sin and ended that relationship and took it to the friendship zone.
As a result the next beautiful lady that came along was even more tempting yet more dangerous. You see this lady was still legally married. Even though she had biblical reasons to get divorced and was attempting to be divorced for sometime, she was not. This was the warning shot from God that I needed to get on my knees and submit all of myself to Him. Of course in all of my sin I rationalized why it was acceptable to date this lady. I actually took the verse from 1 Corinthians 7:15 But if the unbeliever leaves, let it be so. The brother or the sister is not bound in such circumstances; God has called us to live in peace. I used this verse as my defense of why it was OK to date a married woman.
As soon as I justified my sinful relationship I let the heat of the moment take over all my thoughts and desires and I turned my back on Christ. I broke my vow of celibacy. I allowed Satan a victory in my life and broke the heart of not only God but my Pastor and Mentors that had been praying for my continued walk in victory. This should have been devastating to me and here is truly the worst part in my eyes, i didn't even care for weeks. I was so consumed with having sex and being in a broken relationship that was adulterous that I didn't care that I was breaking my Lords heart.
I am so thankful for grace and mercy. I am so thankful for these people God has put into my life that were praying incessantly for me during this storm. I am so thankful that God put it on my heart to pray forgiveness but most importantly to pray for His will once again in my life.
Where I was struggling in my walk that made me vulnerable to Satan's attacks is simple. I was only putting my defensive team on the field and my offense never left the locker room. Ephesians 6: 10-17
In Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.
You see when you read that passage where Paul is teaching us how to Armor up for God and battle the enemy, everything is a defensive tool with the exception of the Sword of the Spirit, the Word of God. That is the only offensive weapon we need. The word of our living God. That is why it's so important to not only read our bible daily but to also memorize the scriptures. That is what is meant by the Sword of the Spirit. When we attack Satan with the Word of God we will always prevail.
Thank you Lord for grace and mercy. Thank you Father for putting people in my life that would pray for me to get back on track when I was not praying for myself. Thank you for forgiving my sin and loving me for the broken and disgusting man that I am and building me into a man that I can be proud to call a child of Christ. I pray for your will in my life Lord. I pray for the continued desire to read your Word daily and to memorize your Word as I may have the offensive weapon I need against the enemy. I rebuke Satan in Jesus name and I love you so much for the love you show me daily. In Jesus name, Amen
